the monster
The stage is a beast. Nothing the north star cafe can do about it, you can't beat it away with a broom stick or hire an exterminator. The stage is a monster and its our fault. It happens when people get together something changes, the pressure of a collective group in attention to one spot one place one person changes everything. I have seen the most brilliant minds go up with stuff I could only dream to have written or the opportunity to read and they shake and shiver and stutter until the eyes turn away. They come off stage with a hang dog look chewed up and spit out by the monster.
The stage is magic as well it comes with the illusion, I've seen people fall in love with it. I've seen people go up and wondered if they would ever leave it, looking at their face and how happy they were to have everyones attention. I'm like that too but good enough to be embarrassed about it. The illusion is in that sugar high ego boost you get when you do it just right and people you don't know pat you on the back. Its a hall of mirrors and you walk through it confused until your like Bruce Lee at the end of Enter the Dragon and you just start smashing them.
People walk out on you to have cigarettes or just meander but you can't begrudge after all who doesn't love to meander? I've seen people change fighting the monster, they win, they lose, they win again and after a while they become grizzled vets who march up and do better then i can on their worst day. It does something to you over time and it takes a super-spiritual balanced person like Nate to really check those emotions. Its easy to feel like a star on this stage even when you were supposed to make the poem, the piece....the star.
The healthiest way to look at the monster is like this whole thing is an experiment. Like an experiment you should have a hypothesis, if your desired effect is to go onstage and arrange dirty words in a way to put people out of their comfort zone. DO IT! I've seen it before and love it. If your desired effect is to pay tribute too or run down someone in your life. DO IT! I've seen it before and I love it. You do this to see how words look in the light of other people's minds, is the idea strong enough to survive a live transition? Or is it going to live in your notebook next to the unfinished story you wrote about being a space man? I never know but I'm never scared to try, i'm nervous and my hands shake like leaves and i feel like i'm going to throw up but I don't.
I have almost cried, those are the best times what scares a group of people more then a person about to come to tears in front of them on stage? Nothing.
The key is to keep imagining keep closing your eyes and sorting through the stuff that might be good. Keep carving it and sanding it down and present it proudly. We'll all know the work you put in. Trust me.
The stage is magic as well it comes with the illusion, I've seen people fall in love with it. I've seen people go up and wondered if they would ever leave it, looking at their face and how happy they were to have everyones attention. I'm like that too but good enough to be embarrassed about it. The illusion is in that sugar high ego boost you get when you do it just right and people you don't know pat you on the back. Its a hall of mirrors and you walk through it confused until your like Bruce Lee at the end of Enter the Dragon and you just start smashing them.
People walk out on you to have cigarettes or just meander but you can't begrudge after all who doesn't love to meander? I've seen people change fighting the monster, they win, they lose, they win again and after a while they become grizzled vets who march up and do better then i can on their worst day. It does something to you over time and it takes a super-spiritual balanced person like Nate to really check those emotions. Its easy to feel like a star on this stage even when you were supposed to make the poem, the piece....the star.
The healthiest way to look at the monster is like this whole thing is an experiment. Like an experiment you should have a hypothesis, if your desired effect is to go onstage and arrange dirty words in a way to put people out of their comfort zone. DO IT! I've seen it before and love it. If your desired effect is to pay tribute too or run down someone in your life. DO IT! I've seen it before and I love it. You do this to see how words look in the light of other people's minds, is the idea strong enough to survive a live transition? Or is it going to live in your notebook next to the unfinished story you wrote about being a space man? I never know but I'm never scared to try, i'm nervous and my hands shake like leaves and i feel like i'm going to throw up but I don't.
I have almost cried, those are the best times what scares a group of people more then a person about to come to tears in front of them on stage? Nothing.
The key is to keep imagining keep closing your eyes and sorting through the stuff that might be good. Keep carving it and sanding it down and present it proudly. We'll all know the work you put in. Trust me.
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